In the past year I have found out that I can do things I never imagined myself doing; not just physically, but mentally and spiritually.
My sister in law asked how things were going the other day, and I told her they were good. She asked if I was still keeping Sam; my response, “everyday, all day”. She said she didn’t know how I did it, that it would wear her out and exhaust her, and when he starts crawling and walking it was going to be a real job.
Her comment made me realize what all I’ve encountered in the past year. That if I had known it was coming would have told you straight out, not only that it wouldn’t happen, but that I would have handled it completely different than I have. I realized that in the past year I’ve dealt with and done more things than I could have ever imagined myself doing and I have done them differently than I would have ever imagined. I have changed so much in the past year as to how I used to think and function to what I think and function at this moment, I can’t begin to list all the changes. Through it all there have been times of overwhelming grief, worry and exhaustion but on the flip side there has been such joy that it is unexplainable, and a sense of peace that can only come from God.
I know enough to know that none of it is over, simply because life will continue and go on, and the days aren’t written yet; except in God’s day timer, and He is the only one who sees that.
As I was relating the conversation to Audrey, I chuckled and said, “well, it will either get me in shape or kill me………either way, I win”
At that moment I thought of Caleb—yep, the one who went into the Promised Land with Joshua, the one who was there through the plaques in Egypt and the deliverance through the Red Sea, and went into the Promised Land as a spy with the others who came back and gave a bad report, sealing their own fate at never getting to enter that Promised Land again.
But Joshua the son of Nun and Caleb the son of Jephunneh remained alive, of the men who went to spy out the land
He was there and saw it all. He knew God was strong enough to bring them through the trials of Egypt, and he knew God would give them the Promised Land.
His comment, when he went to collect the land promised to him, has stuck with me.
“And now, behold, the LORD has kept me alive, as He said, these forty-five years, ever since the LORD spoke this word to Moses while Israel wandered in the wilderness; and now, here I am this day, eighty-five years old. As yet I am as strong this day as on the day that Moses sent me; just as my strength was then, so now is my strength for war, both for going out and for coming in."
In this battle that we continue to fight as we live on this earth, I think of Caleb; wholly committed to the Lord and receiving the strength to go on and forward to the Promised Land……………..Promised. God Promised………………I’m planning on going in, but first I have to fight some battles, continue in the war. I’m counting on God to give strength and longevity if that is what He has for me.
And Joshua blessed him; and he gave Hebron unto Caleb the son of Jephunneh for an inheritance…….. because he wholly followed Jehovah, the God of Israel…….And the land had rest from war.
As a friend of mine said once, “I can sleep when I’m dead.”
I’ll rest when God says it’s time.
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Monday, July 5, 2010
I haven't seen this smile in many years. The one that melts your heart right into a puddle down to the floor.
I remember those smiles from tiny faces, and now they are back.
That smile that says, "I'm glad to see your face."
I find myself melting a lot these days.
Thursday, July 1, 2010
For those on facebook who were willing to share openly with me about the Twilight series, I want to respond by saying thanks. I guess if I had an opportunity I'd tell each of you this story………
When I was in Jr. High or High school, maybe both, the extent of most of the excitement of summer vacation in the tiny town we lived in, besides completing the “to do list” that my mom left us every morning before leaving for work, was catching up on our daytime soap operas.
Alane had her favorites, and I had mine, Mother even had one that we watched when she came home to eat lunch. The way the world is going now the daytime soap is becoming obsolete; the three that we watched with any regularity are now off the air.
I don’t remember too much about them except they were typical soaps; drama, angst, betrayal, lying, social issues (especially in the 60’s you can bet), dark hidden secrets; they were all there.
One soap arrived on the scene during that time. It caught everyone’s attention because it had a twist to it that none of the others had. Look it up on Wikipedia and you will see what I mean.
Dark Shadows was a soap opera that started in the 60’s a true forerunner to the Twilight series, (the guy who came up with it even “had a dream”!) it was very gothic and dark, it featured vampires, werewolves, zombies, and all kinds of stuff that “regular” soap operas didn’t have.
I watched it……. religiously.
I was too young to see that every day in the brief lines of dialogue that were being said, nothing WAS actually being said.
I finally outgrew it or simply lost interest, realizing that like any other soap opera the people in it had issues either brought on by their own poor choices, or it just wasn’t realistic; and it was, to put it simply, a waste of my time. However, for a period I was anxious to see what would become of Barnabus Collins, and the governess Vickie Winters. I was smitten by the dashing Quentin with the mutton side burns.
I say all this to tell everyone who is up in arms about the Twilight series, and I know some of you feel very strongly about this kind of stuff, that like the book of Ecclesiastes says “there is nothing new under the sun.” It is just old stuff packaged and resold in a new wrapping.
I am not, however, letting you who are caught up in it off the hook either. Be careful what you fill your head with. It’s easy to get caught up in stuff that is of no value, God knows our world is so full of it already. Also, don’t think the younger generation isn’t watching you; they are, and might not have the discernment to know when to lay it down and walk away, or turn it off which can lead them into other stuff that they and you might later regret.
And for every dime you spend on it----someone is putting it in their pocket.
"Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy—meditate on these things. The things which you learned and received and heard and saw in me, these do, and the God of peace will be with you." Phil 4:8-9
and THAT, my dear dear friends, is a promise we all can take to the bank!