Monday, February 15, 2010

tears in a bottle

You have recorded my troubles.
You have kept a list of my tears.
Aren't they in your records? ~Ps. 56:8

For our God does not primarily catalogue the endless stream of sins. He is God, not a tabloid informant out for dirt, for the flame sensationalist ugly. I forget this. And there are unspoken parts of me that think He makes no records at all but forgets me, the blind, deaf and dumb God.

But I touch the paper where He's left the trail of His heart. He is love, the tender Physician God who keeps tab of the every ache, a doting Father who soul-fissures when His child cries, the God who keeps the ledgers of every pain, every scrape, every brimming, falling, searing tear.

God does not slumber for He cannot cease to bear testimony to our hurt.

God keeps a list.

It's the wildest Love that drives the Father to record His child's every lament. We never ache without God attending, and He can't stand to see a tear fall to the floor. God cups our grief and "puts our tears in His bottle" (Ps. 56:8).

Today is recorded in the heavens and its pains are written with the wet of tears of God who "hurts with the hurt of my people." (Jeremiah 8:21)

credit to Anne Voskamp at

Friday, February 5, 2010

an update

It isn't about the weather--which is perfectly BORING!! Still snowing, still foggy, overcast, grey, and cold.

This post is about life--what is happening here.

It's time to update.

Nic has moved home (back to Emporia)--brought his girl--and their soon to be born little boy--yet unnamed.

Ups and downs, ins and outs, it's been a rollercoaster ride which Roger and I are wondering if we will survive.

Things are out of order, chaos reigns, and life is VERY real right now. All the routine, and regularity of our orderly life has pretty much flown out the window.

HOWEVER! In the midst of it all that, the still small voice of God is continueing to guide and comfort.

It is like spotlights are shown on moments that will stand out in your mind and memory for the rest of your life.

Life is changing so fast and furious around here I feel I can hardly keep up. It is hard I'll admit it, but we are taking each day as it comes. Working together to prepare ourselves for a new "normal", what ever THAT is!

......will keep you posted.